As I was thinking of starting this blog and choosing a name for it I did so prayerfully. I wanted the name to represent what I wanted to communicate, “Authentically Being.”
Being authentic is not always the easy thing for me to do. Talking about my struggles is always easiest to do when that struggle is behind me. However, being truly authentic is about being real.
When we see someone we generally say, “Hi, how are you?” and we are answered with, “I’m good. How are you?”
But how authentic and real are we when we ask and answer that question? What if we are really not doing great? Can we be real about it? What if we are struggling with something? Are we willing to ask for help? OR on the flip side; when you are the one asking the question are you prepared to sit with the person and really hear them out? Are you willing to be a comfort and a help?
I was reading through my journal and I came across an entry that I made in January. I had a really rough November and December dealing with burning out, mild depression, anxiety attacks, and feeling completely overwhelmed and destroyed by life and I was slowly coming out of that season. However, as I read over my entry I realized that what I was feeling in that entry is something that I still struggle with and what I have struggled with for a lot of my life. I want to share this prayer that I wrote, this outcry to God because I truly believe I am not the only one who struggles with these thoughts. If this is you too then pray this prayer along with me. Sometimes when I am struggling, I have no words to describe how I am feeling, and I don’t know how to pray. It is a comfort though to know and realize that God can take it. He already knows where I am at, He has seen me struggle, and He is with me through it all. He is ready to listen when I have the words to say and He sits with me through my silence too.
So, this is my prayer; authentically being in this life, before I have overcome my battle.
Grasping hold of the Truth I am allowed to receive is easier said than done. I know that Truth is Truth even when I have a hard time believing it. Accepting truth about me can be so difficult. In others, I can point out so much beauty, so many precious things; their strengths, their talents and abilities. I can so easily spot those in other people and I am able to speak that truth over them.
But when it comes to me, I see so many flaws, so many things that need to be improved; in all aspects of who I am.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a deep desire to believe in the Truth. The Truth about who you say I am. But it is just so hard.
I guess I have to start somewhere though don’t I? I need your help.
God, I ask that you would reveal truth to me. Your truth. Reveal it to me through your Word, through people, really through any way that you can. I need that truth to surround me.
God, I thank you that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139: 14). Thank you for refining me, even when it’s hard. Thank you Holy Spirit for your care for me, and for comforting me. Thank you Jesus for Your obedience to death on the cross and that You rose from the dead. You defeated sin and death and because of that you set me free from sin when I ask for your forgiveness and follow in your footsteps.
I am redeemed. I am pure. I have purpose. I am loved. God, you know that I am trying. I am a child of the Most High God. I am a representative of Him as a Christian. I am not bound by sin, nor to my old self. I am alive. I am free. I have a hope and a future.
I know these things God but I still need your help to really believe it about myself. I need to be constantly reminded and guided.
God, I love you. Help me to see the Truth and to believe it with all that I am. Speak Lord and don’t give up on me. Help me to listen and to understand.
What lies do you believe that you need to be set free from? How do you overcome the lies?
Please share verses in the comments that have helped you overcome lies.